Since the beginning of August, when I found out I was pregnant, I have learned a lot of new things. Not only have I learned new things, I have re-learned things I have known for quite some time. Some of them were during the first couple of months of being pregnant and some have come to me just in the past week. If being pregnant changes me this much, I can not imagine how much I will change once I actually have Kendall in my arms.
One thing I learned seems so simple when just saying it, and kind of obvious, but it is a lot to chew on. The minute I looked down at the pregnancy test and saw it was positive I realized my life is never going to be the same. My body is no longer just mine. I share oxygen, food, energy, sleep, everything with my growing child. When my nine months of carrying her are up, my life will not go back to normal. Although I will still have some selfish tendancies, Kendall will always come before me. Some of what I'm saying may leave some of you thinking, "Well, duh..", it is still kind of crazy. To me anyway.
One thing I re-learned, is I love to cook! I think this one came from all the different cravings I have had and my new kitchen! The kitchen in the house we bought is beautiful! I love it! And the cabinets aren't too close to the counter, which makes me happy cause I can finally leave my KitchenAid stand mixer out! Previously, I had to drag it out of the pantry everytime I wanted to use it. But now it's always out! So exciting to me! So pretty soon some of my posts may be sharing new recipes I love!
Another thing I've learned, well I guess I knew this, but I have gained a deeper understanding about God's love and His plans. I can NOT understand how any woman could ever go through pregnancy and not believe in a God who has sovereign control over everything and everyone. Over the past six months, I have done nothing extraordinary, yet there is a new life, a new human being growing inside me! The day we had our ultrasound to find out if we were having a girl or boy, I was laying on the table watching the tv above me showing our child. The very second I saw the spine of our unborn child, my eyes began to well with tears. All I could think in my head was the lyrics to the song, "How great is Our God!" Seeing those tiny vertebra just made me realize how beautiful life is. How beautiful Our God is! How wonderful and deep is His love that He allows a sinner like me to experience a glimpse of his power and love!! I know throughout my life I have made too many mistakes, but thankfully God's grace is sufficient for me! I'm so grateful He has allowed me to experience pregnancy within the walls of marriage just as he intended.
Another thing I have learned is I'm not just excited to be a mother to Kendall. There are no words to describe how excited I am to see my Jeffy be a daddy to Kendall. I love that man more than words can describe. And just through this pregnancy I have learned I am going to love that man even more once I get to see him hold his baby girl in his arms!
One thing I re-learned is I love me a cherry ICEE and candy!!!! I have given up my starbucks addiction for an addiction to Candy Craze and cherry icees!!
Speaking of candy, that reminds me! I have some very cherry Jelly Belly beans waiting on me!
(Sorry if this post is long, random, or just plain weird. I'm trying to get back to blogging mode! (: )
Showing posts with label grace. Show all posts
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Sunday, December 5, 2010
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
A Challenge
Being both very determined and very stubborn, I am (almost) always ready for a challenge. For as long as I can remember, telling me I can't do something was just a way to speed up the process of me doing what I "can't". Recently, I feel God has been working in my life to present me with challenges. And I can honestly say, it is very refreshing.
Being raised in a Christian home, I don't ever remember a time where I didn't know I belonged to a God who had unconditional love for me, and there was nothing I can do to change it. I am so incredibly grateful I was raised in a home where I can claim the previous statement. Lately, through the challenges I have been presented with, I have began to wonder if maybe I had taken for granted the love the Creator of all things has for me.
About six weeks ago, I began reading CrazyLove by Francis Chan. If you are content with your relationship with God and have no desire to grow in Him, don't pick up this book. This book is full of truths I have known most of my life, however, it presents them in such a way I have found myself re-evaluating not only my love for God but my love for others. The chapters I have read so far leave me with a desire to analyze every aspect of my life. To say this book has challenged me to live in response to my love for my Savior is an understatement.
As if the book isn't enough, I have recently found myself challenged simply by the people in my life. Reading others' blogs and listening to them has opened my eyes to so many different things. I love that God continues to speak to me through different outlets, and outlets which continually grab my attention. I am lucky enough to be surrounded with Christians who truly love and live for God. I have so many friends who challenge me to grow just by the way they live their lives.
However much I may enjoy a good challenge, I am looking forward to a day when my relationship with God won't need challenging because I will have new eyes to be able to know and see my King for all that He is! What a day that will be!
Being raised in a Christian home, I don't ever remember a time where I didn't know I belonged to a God who had unconditional love for me, and there was nothing I can do to change it. I am so incredibly grateful I was raised in a home where I can claim the previous statement. Lately, through the challenges I have been presented with, I have began to wonder if maybe I had taken for granted the love the Creator of all things has for me.
About six weeks ago, I began reading CrazyLove by Francis Chan. If you are content with your relationship with God and have no desire to grow in Him, don't pick up this book. This book is full of truths I have known most of my life, however, it presents them in such a way I have found myself re-evaluating not only my love for God but my love for others. The chapters I have read so far leave me with a desire to analyze every aspect of my life. To say this book has challenged me to live in response to my love for my Savior is an understatement.
As if the book isn't enough, I have recently found myself challenged simply by the people in my life. Reading others' blogs and listening to them has opened my eyes to so many different things. I love that God continues to speak to me through different outlets, and outlets which continually grab my attention. I am lucky enough to be surrounded with Christians who truly love and live for God. I have so many friends who challenge me to grow just by the way they live their lives.
However much I may enjoy a good challenge, I am looking forward to a day when my relationship with God won't need challenging because I will have new eyes to be able to know and see my King for all that He is! What a day that will be!
Monday, April 19, 2010
Learning Something New
It never ceases to amaze me how true the following statement is, "You learn something new everyday." I have known this for a long time now, but sometimes I think I get suprised by the things I'm learning. Let me give you an example.
Today, I kept a very close eye on my husband. Things have been kind of crazy in our house lately, and as a worrying wife, I felt it was my duty to make sure he was okay. The more I watched him, the more I learned.
I have known for just a few weeks shy of two years, my husband is an amazing man. But today as I watched and analyzed, it blew my mind. The man is so incredibly loving, forgiving, concerned, protective, gentle, genuine, and I could go on and on and on. I have loved that man for a good while now, but I am stunned at how I continue to fall deeper in love with him on a daily basis.
So today, I learned, not only is he an amazing person, he loves and lives with the most amazing heart I have ever seen. Which basically makes me the luckiest girl in the world! :)
Today, I kept a very close eye on my husband. Things have been kind of crazy in our house lately, and as a worrying wife, I felt it was my duty to make sure he was okay. The more I watched him, the more I learned.
I have known for just a few weeks shy of two years, my husband is an amazing man. But today as I watched and analyzed, it blew my mind. The man is so incredibly loving, forgiving, concerned, protective, gentle, genuine, and I could go on and on and on. I have loved that man for a good while now, but I am stunned at how I continue to fall deeper in love with him on a daily basis.
So today, I learned, not only is he an amazing person, he loves and lives with the most amazing heart I have ever seen. Which basically makes me the luckiest girl in the world! :)
Tuesday, February 2, 2010
Why, why, why
Earlier today, I told my precious husband I started a blog. After his sarcastic ranting of how he doesn't even know me anymore, he asked me why I started a blog. It got me thinking, and I figured the answer to that question is probably important.
Although I am only 23 years old, I have done things and learned things most people my age don't get to until they are in their late 20s or 30s. I'm a little old for my age. And not just in maturity. My insides are old too. I always joke about having the insides of a 99 year old woman. I have Crohn's disease, interstitial cystitis, severe allergies (joy!) and the occasional asthma. Also, I had a exploratory surgery looking to see if I have endometriosis. At the time, the dr said he found nothing. However, every visit since then he has said I do have it. So in december of '06 I didn't have it, but last week he said I did. Add it to the list, I suppose.
Anyway, like most kids, in high school and my first year or two of college I rebelled. A LOT. It wasn't until I started getting sick, I began to change the way I live. When I was finally brought to my knees and changed, I realized just how big of a mess I had made my life.
Three years ago, I spent one restless night at my parents' house. I couldn't sleep. And I remember crying and being frustrated with every part of me. I was raised in a Christian home and I knew how to pray. But somehow I had forgotten what a real relationship with God was. That night, My God reached down and pulled me out of my pit. It was not until then I discovered the true meaning of grace and mercy.
As I began to bask in the love God poured out on me, I made him a promise. For as long as I live, I will share my experience with whoever needs it. No matter what the cost, I won't hold anything about His love, grace, or mercy back. He did not share it with me to hoard. He allowed me to experience Him so I could share with others. So that is why....
Although I am only 23 years old, I have done things and learned things most people my age don't get to until they are in their late 20s or 30s. I'm a little old for my age. And not just in maturity. My insides are old too. I always joke about having the insides of a 99 year old woman. I have Crohn's disease, interstitial cystitis, severe allergies (joy!) and the occasional asthma. Also, I had a exploratory surgery looking to see if I have endometriosis. At the time, the dr said he found nothing. However, every visit since then he has said I do have it. So in december of '06 I didn't have it, but last week he said I did. Add it to the list, I suppose.
Anyway, like most kids, in high school and my first year or two of college I rebelled. A LOT. It wasn't until I started getting sick, I began to change the way I live. When I was finally brought to my knees and changed, I realized just how big of a mess I had made my life.
Three years ago, I spent one restless night at my parents' house. I couldn't sleep. And I remember crying and being frustrated with every part of me. I was raised in a Christian home and I knew how to pray. But somehow I had forgotten what a real relationship with God was. That night, My God reached down and pulled me out of my pit. It was not until then I discovered the true meaning of grace and mercy.
As I began to bask in the love God poured out on me, I made him a promise. For as long as I live, I will share my experience with whoever needs it. No matter what the cost, I won't hold anything about His love, grace, or mercy back. He did not share it with me to hoard. He allowed me to experience Him so I could share with others. So that is why....
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